What could cause flashes of random images while meditating?.
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Hi Deepak, I learned how to meditate two years ago and I have taken to it very well. In two years I have been to silence twice, which I’ve been told is very good going! The strangest thing happened to me 6 months ago over the space of 2 weeks. On four separate occasions, I had a random flood of visually imagery that I could not trace back to a dream, memories from the past etc. In fact the images were nothing I had seen before.
They lasted around 8 secs each and then left again, but the strangest thing of all was that once they left, I had no recollection of what they were. What I do recall is that the images weren’t terrifying or worrying, but the experience was. I can only describe this flood of imagery as if someone had opened the top of my head and poured freezing cold water onto my brain, then ran the whole way down the inside of my body and then left through my feet. Towards the end of this two week period, on the Friday, I started to feel really disorientated yet still coherent, and was walking around feeling half drunk. To make matters worse, everything I looked it had deja vu attached to it, even memories. I was so concerned that my mental health was on the rocks that I started to Google ‘schizophrenia’ and psychosis and the like, but I knew deep down that this was not it, but I feared that there was no one I could talk to because I knew that this was something that not no one would understand, or even relate to. I stayed in bed for the weekend, praying for it to go away. The on the Sat night whilst lying in bed, I felt this huge surge of roasting hot energy travel from my stomach to my head, and it kept running back and forth for around 15 mins, it was a beautiful feeling. I started then laughing to myself, almost sensing that I wasn’t going crazy, but maybe sensing that it was a visit from elsewhere. The next day I woke up I was back to normal, thank God. It was an experience that I hope never happens to me again, I felt so alone. What do you think this could have been? My Meditation teacher suggested that my awareness was expanding? Thanks!
Deepak's response:
Yes, your awareness was certainly expanding. As we experience deeper levels of our consciousness in meditation, it can happen that we contact old impressions and memories we might have lost conscious contact with. As those memories are activated they can replay in our mind as a flood of images, colors, sensations, or emotions (or all of the above simultaneously). It’s nothing to be worried about as it represents the healing and reconnecting process involved in our enlightenment. It can be a little disorienting when the impressions of the past pull us out of present time awareness and that can sometimes be experiences as déjà vu. The pleasant hot energy moving up to your head is a classic kundalini experience and that seemed to clear out the residual disorientation and get you back on solid ground and higher ground too.
I had the same experience minus the flood of the images part. I get exactly how you felt, feeling alone, thinking you`re going crazy. the worst part was that during those days, I lost the identity I had about my body. I looked at my hand and wondered why it looked like this, or I saw my leg and felt so separated from my own body. I looked at people and saw their head, and their two eyes and their mouth moving when they were talking, and just couldn`t make sense of it. The faces of my family members started to seem strange to me! I too spent a lot of time in bed praying I would become whole again. My mom thought I was depressed because of being recently separated from a guy I loved, but the fact was that he was the least of my worries back then! I just wanted to be fixed. And like you, I woke up one day and felt a lot better, but for some days after, I again got this weird half-drunkness in the afternoons. And for a couple of weeks later I got many panic attacks, especially when going to sleep at night. It`s been around 9 months and I feel so much better. I found God again. He was so absent from my life before this experience, and I have to confess I was a very self-centered person. But thank God, I`ve learned so much, and each time I stress, I remember God is always with me, and how he`s always been so kind to me in way I never noticed. Through this experience, God helped me let go of that person, that I know now how unhealthy that relationship was. To be honest, I still do think it was depression. Because after my separation, I also put many things away in my life. Many things that I loved dearly. I cut my hair short, gave away many favorite cloths and shoes, ate a lot less and I was so clueless about the world, and thought of it a miserable hopeless place, I was also starting to believe love isn`t real. I have to say, I DO feel like I`m millions of light years away from that person, yet the essence of my being is untouched, the one I was born with, the one that made me human, and connected me to every other human being, the one that`s gonna be with me after I die, the one I had forgotten about and this whole experience reminded me of it again. God bless everyone :-)
It reads like an amazing experience! I don`t get how this was terrifying.
This is very interesting!