Impatience with meditation.
When your mind and heart are truly open abundance will flow to you effortlessly and easily.
Question:
When I meditate I have hard time staying calm or even repeat mantras because my breathing becomes quite fast and irregular. I understand that this is a common reaction of my body trying to release old conditions. Usually there is subtle pain in my throat and solar plexus and I do feel better after each session of releasing my old painful memories, but I’m also frustrated since it has already been a few months practicing this without actually entering and staying in the gap. Is there any other methods to help speed up the process of releasing old conditioning other than sitting quietly and witness my body breathe out the emotional debris from the past?
Response:
A good way to help facilitate the release of old conditioning is to do ten minutes of easy yoga asanas and five minutes of gentle pranayama before beginning meditation. Those two activities help the body and mind clear some of the more coarse conditioning and obstructions beforehand, so that the meditation is allowed to go as deeply as possible.
The other thing to bear in mind is that even when your meditations are full of physical releasing and active thoughts, that is still effective meditation and that is what is most important. If you are meditating correctly, then you are getting the exact experience you need at that time for your greatest spiritual benefit. Whether that experience is of silence in the gap or subtle pain in your throat plexus, your inner intelligence that is connected to cosmic intelligence knows better what you need from meditation, than your ego mind. Once you put yourself in the flow of that flow of universal intelligence, you can feel assured that your growth is proceeding as quickly and perfectly as possible.
Love,
Deepak
