Question:
In trying to come to some peace with myself, I really need to ask you for some advice. I have been brought up in a moderately religious family but I then married a man who does not believe in God as we knew it. He is a good
honest man who would not harm a fly . I found some merit in his ideas. But I am confused with life as we were indoctrinated with old systems . My dilemma comes in when people who constantly pray at temples can have such prejudices and they can be so respected merely because they pray and are seen as religious people. I do not receive respect as I do not go to temple , I believe I just need to be a good human. I do my service , I have a lovely family but it seems I am still looking for something. Possibly most of all respect from people who practice those prejudices , the very people who believe I am not good enough. It is a funny thing. I want to get out of this thinking please please.
I was exposed to a lot of prejudices due to the caste system and that even now bothers me . People in this town still practice those prejudices , how do I deal with the prejudices?
What I would like is a guide for living . As your web page says I need to possibly have a balance in my Mental Physical, spiritual self. How do I draw self value and worth from my own essence?
Answer:
Right now your self-esteem is tied to your self-image, and that puts your well being at the mercy of what anyone around you thinks of you. Real self-esteem is rooted in your spiritual existence which is independent of the opinions of others. Your true essence is limitless and fearless. When you are grounded in your true Self, then you know that you are neither above anyone else nor below anyone else. In that awareness you discover a happiness and self-worth that no one can take from you.
To switch from an external based self-image to an internally referenced self-esteem you need to cultivate an easy familiarity with your inner silence, your pure Being. The time-honored means of doing that is through a meditation practice. After you have developed an abiding presence of your higher Self with meditation, then you need to work on reconfiguring and healing the old patterns you have of looking outside yourself for validation.
The way to do this is simply through compassionate awareness. As you witness yourself getting caught up in your familiar emotional reactions, gently witness the process without judgment. This process of bringing the light of your consciousness into present experience serves to correct the misperceptions and heal the wounds that have perpetuated those old patterns. In time, your sense of identity shifts from being externally referenced to being Self referenced. Then you have reclaimed your true self-esteem.
Love,
Deepak