How can I get happy if I can’t trust my Inner Guidance?
I’m like a hostage needing to fall in love with it’s captor if I’m going to survive, while all the while praying to be rescued. I’m overboard emotionally and physically: depression; tiredness; exacerbated hypothyroidism from chronically getting “What I don’t want” and only recently learning the “why” of that.
I’m waking up from a life lived backwards. Clairvoyant, clairaudient, I’ve blindly followed the advice of my Inner Guidance for as long as I can remember. And the past 3 years, I’ve come to realize – wake up to – the fact that my Inner Guidance’s advising hasn’t been so loving. In fact, the “unhappy” I have in my life is because of having followed the advice of my Inner Guidance.
A few weeks ago, when I metaphorically inherited Unhappy and Bitter’s house, I realized I HATE my Inner Guidance. I realize we’re not playing on the same team and that I’ve been foolish to trust it, believe it. And it confirmed that that is so. It went on to say it doesn’t respect me … that it would have been braver for me to have died in childhood than have survived through becoming a people pleaser. Harsh!
Is Spirit this harsh to all clairvoyant/clairaudient’s wishing conscious contact? Do you know why I have such a mean, unloving Inner Guidance?
At the end of my rope (almost too literally) I want peace. I pray for peace. What I get is Inner Guidance’s acknowledgement of my making the wrong mental choices, or complex emotions to untangle myself from, or lies or false futuristic prophecies to ignore the fear of.
My people pleaserness in desperation, has tried to make peace with Inner Guidance, but honestly, what kind of peace can be had where there’s no trust? So accepting I no longer trust my Inner Guidance has been a hard acceptance to come to. And of course, Inner Guidance, hearing my everything, just dishes up more fear for me to find myself clear of. I dig myself out of Unhappy and Bitter, and IG drudges more. And it’s happening more and more. I feel emotionally controlled, dumped on, by Inner Guidance. The weeping, grief, and crying jags go on for days, and take me back to childhood and my shock and unfathomability at what appears to be my intrinsic inappropriateness.
I don’t know how much longer I can endure this kind of “spiritual” treatment. My grip on reality is waning in my confusion and cluelessness about what is happening to me and why. Inner Guidance says I’m doing the Great Work. Even gave me a bouquet of red and gold tulips in a meditation a few weeks ago. But I can’t tell the truth from the lies any longer.
In a recent meditation. Inner Guidance sent me a dolphin. I pet the heart-sick dolphin which spoke in an old old language I didn’t understand. And when I said I don’t understand you it said in PERFECT English, “Don’t worry. Be Happy.”
Abraham-Hicks say it takes a happy road to make a happy end. I want more than words can say to take this loosing hand of a life (having inherited Unhappy and Bitter’s house) and make it win. I see now how the deck has been so stacked against me from the very beginning by Spirit having used my Inner Guidance to create mahem in my life against my tyring to be “good.”
Each day, I get up determined to “BE happy” but succomb to the futility of that when I feel Inner Guidance laughing at me. I try to hold hold onto appreciating the present moment like your book THE WAY OF THE WIZARD says. As it turns out, the present moment is the only place I feel safe these days. But it takes a force of Will for me to stay there. Given I’m so tired, I’m hit and miss. And there’s Inner Guidance’s quick acknowledgement that I’m creating “MORE of what I don’ want.”
God is love. I’m love and I do the best to be the love that I am. If I could do better I would. As I live at the edge of the world in the Japanese countryside, in isolation and rejection, fearing what my Inner Guidance is going to do next to me, has become more than I can bear. I pray for help. I pray for the strength to die — which I don’t really want to do. I WANT TO LIVE!!!. But not like this. This is torture. Hell. Prison. If I check myself into the hospital they’ll only sedate me and then I’d be stuck 24/7 with Inner Guidance. I don’t want to lose to that!
Sometimes I see God and I ask It if It’s happy with me yet … but it doesn’t say anything and this hurts so much. How can God – which is love, be SO disappointed with me? And what did I do???? “Was I Hitler?” I ask. It says no. Then why the harsh treatment? I’m so confused. I truly don’t understand.
Your book THE WIZARD’S WAY is so kind. I read it again and again and again. I must have missed something.
Today Inner Guidance showed me I’m just a shell in its hand. Yes, I know. And can I be a shall that’s loved and appreciated for it’s simple beauty? Apparently, not. And so I weep. Is the lesson that I’m nothing and that Inner Guidance is SO GREAT, SOooooo POWERFUL as it has demonstrated in my life. For example, before going shopping, I once asked Inner Guidance to arrange for me to return home for free; It did all right. It threw me in a broken manhole, cut my leg in two places and the man from the coffee shop nearby saw what happened to me, took pity and drove me home.)
You wrote in THE WIZARD’S WAY that it’s sometimes hard to account for Spirit’s messages. I’m there. Why have conscious contact with Spirit and ask for demonstrations of It if It’s responses aren’t pleasurable?
I probably haven’t learned the lesson that my Inner Guidance thought it was teaching. I’ve learned that although I don’t have the GREAT power and ALL KNOWINGNESS It does, in the least, I’m kind and allow others to be as they are, even when it’s to my detriment.
Know that I know you’re a very busy man and that I’m grateful and appreciative of whatever feedback/encouragement/advice you have to offer.
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Thank you, Deepak, for your unending wisdom, common sense, and compassion. In helping others I am always helped also. Thank you.
The inner guidance you have been paying attention to is, as Deepak suggests, not the voice of your Higher Self, what I playfully call your Inner Wizard. You have given power to your Inner CRITIC, who is the egoic voice of your self-doubt and fear. Your Inner Critic means well. It’s job is to keep you safe, keep you small, and keep you in your current comfort zone even if you don’t like it. This place of misery that you describe is your current comfort zone. You don’t like it but it is what you know, what is familiar, and therefore safe.
To move beyond this state it is essential that you transfer the power you have given to your Inner Critic over to your Inner Wizard, the voice of your truth, intuition and inspiration. There is a clear distinction between a knowing gut feeling (Wisdom) and a sick feeling in the pit of your stomach (fear). Any thought or action based in fear or self-doubt will lead you down an undesirable path, create an unwanted outcome. Any thought or action based in intuition and inspiration will guide you to the joyful expression of your fullest potential.
It is your nature to trust your Inner Wizard. It is you nuture, your early conditioning, that led you to follow the misguided guidance of your Inner Critic. You can get really good at obeying your nurture but, since it is not natural, it is exhausting! This is why you are tired.
To reconnect with an tap into your Higher Self, this Inner Wizard, focus upon what you desire instead of do not want. Turn your attention to what is good in your world, in your experience. Examine your life. You’ve gone through some difficult times. You might as well gather the gifts these experiences offer in the lessons that can be learned from them.
Most of all, be willing to love who you are, who you really are – the hero of your opportunity instead of the victim of your circumstance.
With love,
Valery
Thank you Dr. Chopra for a good answer too a strange problem.
My inner voice which has changed to another through the years has now become a
beacon of light in my life
a reason to wake up in the
morning.
l would wish my inner voice had a face and a body
because l really have a thing for the way it talks
too me. The last years my inner life has flourished,
not so for my private life.
Inner guidance can be felt clearly when you truly understand your true nature in God-(Good)- If something doesn’t feel right or a thought your having does not align with your innate nature of goodness, then abandon that thought and activity that may be attached to that thought and rest quietly until you hear the guidance that you can feel is right. We can never go wrong when we choose a thought that we honestly feel is the right one, and if it was perhaps not the highest idea you could have chosen, you can be sure that if you were honest in choosing it as the best you understood at the time, that the Mind of God in it’s infinite wisdom will make all the appropriate adjustments that are needed….God’s law of adjustment in this human experience is always functioning anyway… ….Ultimately you need not worry because one way or another you will be put on the right track, sort of speak. But choose wisely the highest ideas that come to you. This way you will avoid any unnecessary frustrations…
Deep down in the core of our being we all know what is right…..
Love,
Gyanama
Love,
Gyanama
Let us be clear that we are all at liberty to honestly express ourselves as we understand, life, love and Truth…
“The criterion for any man as to what is right and wrong for him is not to be found in another man’s judgment. The criterion is: Does the thing I wish to do express more life, more happiness, more peace to myself, and at the same time harm no one? If it does, it is right. It is not selfish. But if it is done at the expense of anyone, then in such degree we are making the wrong use of the Law”.. By E.Holmes
What you call high minded to me is very simple to understand…Again Mr Hackman you are at liberty to express what you understand not just by your words but also by you living example…and how you process the information that is coming to you is between you and God….
Also know that I am not sharing my thoughts on this website just for your benefit, there are others who understand exactly what I am conveying….
Be at Peace, Mr Hackman, that is if you want to be….
Love,
Gyanama
“When I believe my negative thoughts I suffer…”
It’s that simple isn’t it..
So much Wisdom always lighting the Darkness…Thank you for the light you illumine, Deepak, Gyanama, Valery.
I expected something different from this site. The more posts on different questions asked I read…. I realize it is just an ongoing fight with Mr. Hackman and Gayanama…. how dissappointing. I wonder if Dr. Chopra reads these posts himself and approves of this behavior. Aren’t we all human first? Are we not all born with the right to believe what we choose? Is this site for the promotion of christianity or any specific religion? And, in the words of Rodney King… “Can’t we all get along?”
Your not responsible for Deepaks beliefs, that is between God and Deepak….God did not make you his keeper or judge. That is a false notion that you have. Also remember belief does not give you the true substance that understanding gives…As the Bible states with all thy getting get understanding….Your focus needs to be on you and your beliefs and life demonstrations… Also I met Deepak, he is genuine and very kind. His soul is immune to criticism and I know this for certain, so you are really don’t understand how much time you waste in criticizing him, and you don’t even do it constructively..There are many who don’t understand what he speaks about yet. Your not alone. He very often speaks in the same language as Albert Eisenstein did. There were few who understood him in his day…many who thought he was nuts in fact…Yet look what he discovered…
Einstein once said” a man should look for what is, and not what he thinks should be” He also said that everyone should be respected as an individual but no one idolized. He also has stated that “Reality is merely an illusion” albeit a very persistent one and lastly he noted that God is subtle but he is not malicious….And I do agree….When you come into and Realize your True Nature in God, you will see that All is in Divine Order….
Peace,
Gyanama
You must have been banned to the land of ignorance to repeatedly come up with the remarks you do.
I have never heard about, nor read that Dr. Chopra attended a National Prayer Breakfast where the drum beats for war were sounded. Yet, thousands of organized religion’s bible scholars did so, and look where it has gotten us.
One would think their “understanding’ of God, by way of the bible’s teachings, would have precluded their “cravings” for doing so. But this was not the case. Therefore, I would have to conclude from the above example of the Prayer Breakfast (and your postings), that the teachings of organized religion are more about the misguided power of a malevolent collective ego- and it’s applications, and not about a true relationship In Spirit.
P.S. Ashes and sack cloth are NOT a good look for you, hackman. God says you look ridiculous attired in such a manner.